"I don't know if having you there would have made it better or worse. I would have certainly been more than happy of your support, of course. But... when I thought I might turn into a monster, the only thing that brought me comfort was knowing you, at least, were safe beyond my reach." He says it so simply, like so much else he says. It's almost difficult to believe he was sobbing but a few minutes ago. But then, that's just always been how he is-- it's not precisely that he holds things in, so much as things just have never surfaced in him the same way they do in other people.
"Still. I missed you." He's been back, of course, several times, but it's not the same when he knows he's leaving again in the morning, when the Light inside him had started to make him antsy about spending time here at all.
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Date: 2021-06-21 02:23 am (UTC)"Still. I missed you." He's been back, of course, several times, but it's not the same when he knows he's leaving again in the morning, when the Light inside him had started to make him antsy about spending time here at all.