"I... don't know what I am. About any of it," he says, after a moment, but he also doesn't refute Phillip being angry.
"To be so alone and apart," he adds, after a moment, "and to have no one see or understand it. It doesn't excuse the end result, of course, but it... makes me more sad than angry, I think. I know Azem left, when it was all falling apart. Seeing how people treated Hermes, I think I understand why. To be the only one who understood that there was still suffering when everyone around you insisted there was not... how could one not go a bit crazy?"
"I'm more mad at everyone else. That there was no recourse. That Emet-Selch wouldn't have known Hermes well enough to know not to use Amon as Fandaniel, even after all the rest of the years. What good is a society that fails it's most vulnerable? They didn't deserve it any more than we do, but..."
... but I can't help but think we maybe deserve it a little bit too. He doesn't say it. He's supposed to be the bastion of hope. And he will be again, eventually. It's not in his nature to give up and there is such beauty in the world. But there is no defense for it, either.
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"To be so alone and apart," he adds, after a moment, "and to have no one see or understand it. It doesn't excuse the end result, of course, but it... makes me more sad than angry, I think. I know Azem left, when it was all falling apart. Seeing how people treated Hermes, I think I understand why. To be the only one who understood that there was still suffering when everyone around you insisted there was not... how could one not go a bit crazy?"
"I'm more mad at everyone else. That there was no recourse. That Emet-Selch wouldn't have known Hermes well enough to know not to use Amon as Fandaniel, even after all the rest of the years. What good is a society that fails it's most vulnerable? They didn't deserve it any more than we do, but..."
... but I can't help but think we maybe deserve it a little bit too. He doesn't say it. He's supposed to be the bastion of hope. And he will be again, eventually. It's not in his nature to give up and there is such beauty in the world. But there is no defense for it, either.