"I'm sure you would not be the first to attempt it, at the very least." He falls silent for a long moment after that, though the silence is surprisingly comfortable and not like he's just waiting for Emet-Selch to say something about it. Finally, though, he does speak again, his voice a little softer, just for the two of them.
"We can talk about it now or later or we can never speak of it again, whichever you prefer. But I need you to know I didn't do it on purpose." That it was his doing is of no doubt, either to himself or to Emet-Selch. He had known precisely what had happened the moment it had happened, he just didn't have any control over it. "I'm perfectly aware it's childish and if I could have made a different conscious decision, I would have," he shrugs slightly, though he doubts Emet-Selch can see it. He's looking up at the trees still rather than at him, so he wouldn't know. "But everything in that place is born from the heart and not the head. And I've never had any control over that."
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Date: 2022-08-02 04:41 pm (UTC)"I'm sure you would not be the first to attempt it, at the very least." He falls silent for a long moment after that, though the silence is surprisingly comfortable and not like he's just waiting for Emet-Selch to say something about it. Finally, though, he does speak again, his voice a little softer, just for the two of them.
"We can talk about it now or later or we can never speak of it again, whichever you prefer. But I need you to know I didn't do it on purpose." That it was his doing is of no doubt, either to himself or to Emet-Selch. He had known precisely what had happened the moment it had happened, he just didn't have any control over it. "I'm perfectly aware it's childish and if I could have made a different conscious decision, I would have," he shrugs slightly, though he doubts Emet-Selch can see it. He's looking up at the trees still rather than at him, so he wouldn't know. "But everything in that place is born from the heart and not the head. And I've never had any control over that."